The night is my lover, right now (written tonight, 01:00). Its blackness filled with city-light, and its silence comforting. A sound now and then as cars drive by, lonely riders delivering the products and dreams of others. My brain has slumbered for weeks now. Some bouts of energy have quickly fallen to sleep again, hibernation taking over. Is it the balmy air of spring calling me ? I think the answer is straightforward: Next week I have a "writing leave", and I`ve already written and read a lot of what I need to get through (I am writing a specialist article about EMDR and how it influences the brain). That opens up time for other activities, and my projects, so far in sleep mode, have started to jump up and down like crazy cheerleaders again. The bouncing produce energy, and as we all know: Energy can not be created or destroyed, it can only be changed.
I have three main projects at the time. Sometimes it`s hard to know what to do first, so maybe you can help?
|Where the kindness|
Doing science on EMDR and planning a course on emotions
- My facebook group "Aktiviteter i Førde"
On this group people can post what happens in our city, and I also organize some activities.
Many of the tasks will involve chatting with people. I love that part of it; Meaningful conversations that feel like they matter. I can do small talk, but it never has been my greatest strength, and I do notice my tendency to zone out when people start to talk about the weather. Sometimes I wish I could be more NORMAL. Just be pleased with everyday life; Enjoying good food, focus on friends and family more, travel and talk about everyday life. But I would feel like I didn`t follow my dreams, and people are different. Some find it satisfying to follow their dream about a calm life with all its benefits, and some dream about changing the world (I still remember how one girl in my psychology class told me she wanted to do exactly that, and I know she actually does, every day by just being herself).
I am happy people can be satisfied with different things, since that makes the world perfect and able to work. But that also leads to responsibility: One cannot and should not ignore ones dreams, because some aren`t meant for exactly what parents or society expects. Some must explore different locations or venues, since their dreams are a bit harder to achieve in normal settings. That doesn`t mean that dreaming about a home, a family, a place to eat lunch and talk about the weather, is unworthy. I am grateful that some people love these things, as there would be chaos if not. It's actually the glue of society, and vital for me and everyone else. But this week I will dedicate myself to writing (like I should) but also planning and organizing some of my projects. I will also try to update my blog more than I`ve done the last couple of weeks, and look forward to meeting new people with good ideas!
So, what would you prioritize?
|How should I use my time the next days?|